Living in my imaginary world of your presence and beautiful memories

In the night, as I drink a cup of hot chocolate standing in my balcony wondering about you. I look at the beautiful light reflected by the moon thinking about you. I see the stars lit brightly in the wide sky and look for the tomorrow, the tomorrow that might have us together.

I live in my imaginary world with your memories…

I lack words to describe how lucky I was to have you in my life; how happy I used to be when you used to be there, how excited I was to create memories with you when you were there and how colorful the world seemed with you present in my life.

I wish I could explain how hard it is to live through time in your absence. It has become very hard for me to convince my heart that I will have to spend this life with only memories. I am certain; I will live until I reach the time of my death. However, without you, this life has no meaning.

With every passing second, my desire, my wish, my need to be with you increases.

As time passes, the night becomes darker and the hot chocolate becomes cold, but my feelings keep increasing. I held the cup in my hand, and a drop of water fell into the cup. For a second, I thought it started to rain and wanted to rush inside. Even though I had been looking at the sky, I forgot about how clear the sky was as my brain and heart focused only towards you.

I live in a small world that only has your memories, your smile, your messages, and the time I spent with you. I would never leave the world I created with your presence.

My heart bleeds every second in the pain of not being with you…

As I came back to my senses, it was not raining; it was a teardrop. The teardrop fell from my eye and showed how much I miss your presence and how much I love you. My eyes are numb because I am not with you, I am not able to kiss your beautiful hands and tell you I love you. My eyes and the numbness speak a million words about how madly I am in love with you.

Hours passed, and I kept standing staring at the sky, the cup of hot chocolate became very cold. What mattered to me was how much I want to be with you. Those memories I had with you are the most beautiful moments I had in my life. I took a sip from the cup, and I stood in the weather forgetting how cold it was. I left the cup with some of the hot chocolate on the table and came inside my room.

I walked to my bed and prepared to sleep thinking, “dreams might be the place where we can be together if not in reality.”

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