Let us watch a movie and chill. This was her favorite thing to say after a long day. Watching movies with her was the best thing I liked. No matter how tired I was I would always lighten up when she said let us watch a movie together. I would get excited like a child who was offered candy.
She liked to watch action movies and I liked to see her watch them. Whenever she said she wants to watch a movie I would get the popcorn, snacks, juices and wait patiently to sit with her and watch a movie.
While watching a movie, I would always put my head in her lap and look at her during the movie. When she would be watching the movie very carefully I would run down my fingers through her hair. I would also gently touch her cheeks to feel the perfect skin crafted by God. In her eyes, I could see beauty. In her lap, I could hide away from the whole world, I could run away from all my problems.
She would always look at me smile and say “we are watching the movie and not me”. I would smile and say “nothing can be as perfect as you”. Immediately she would blush and smile. Her smile was the perfect remedy for me after a long day, it was the best thing to eliminate my stress immediately.
She would also rub her hand through my hair and I would have the best feeling. She would also bend down and kiss my forehead telling me about random things. I would just listen to her speak and her perfection. Occasionally I would annoy her as well during a movie, I would pause the movie or keep touching her nose. She would look at me take a deep breath and continue the movie. Often, I slept in her lap not knowing when the movie finished, because that was the place where I felt safe, where I felt complete, where I could hide from all my worries.
At times I would hold her hand and plug with her hand or her fingers or even kiss her beautiful hand. The perfection in those sessions is beyond any definition of words. The feeling in watching a movie with her is better than anything.
I remember all the movies I saw with her, I remember all the time I spent with her. I have her memories. Today when I think only if you were here to watch a movie together. It would be perfect. I sit today writing this and a movie playing on the television, I have popcorn I have the juice but I do not have you.
Movies are not the same without you.
I do not have your lap to place my head in.
I do not have your hair to run my hand through.
I do not have your lap to hide from all the worries.
I do not have your eyes to see the most beautiful eyes.
I do not have your hands to hold.
Only if I could hear the words, let us watch a movie and chill. I would be happy and very excited. Now a movie is just a video with a story. No matter how good the story is, it is not the same without you. I missed you yesterday, I miss you today and I will miss you always. The movie continues and I feel alone, want to cry my heart out. I want to run to you hug you, and hold you tight. I want to put my head in your lap and cry. I realize that all I have now is the sweet memories of us together. All I have is the time I spent with you. All I have is my love for you increasing every second. As the movie comes to an end, I think will there be a day again when I hear you say “let us watch a movie and chill.”